Too Good Not To Share

Foreign Policy published this statement by Liu Xiaobo, a Chinese writer and political dissident, which he gave just before being convicted of subversion in China. You stumble upon gems like this every now and then. It expertly conveys the strength of his feelings: love for his wife, freedom, and the future of the country about to imprison him. Like the title says, too good not to share.

If I may be permitted to say so, the most fortunate experience of these past twenty years has been the selfless love I have received from my wife, Liu Xia. She could not be present as an observer in court today, but I still want to say to you, my dear, that I firmly believe your love for me will remain the same as it has always been. Throughout all these years that I have lived without freedom, our love was full of bitterness imposed by outside circumstances, but as I savor its aftertaste, it remains boundless. I am serving my sentence in a tangible prison, while you wait in the intangible prison of the heart. Your love is the sunlight that leaps over high walls and penetrates the iron bars of my prison window, stroking every inch of my skin, warming every cell of my body, allowing me to always keep peace, openness, and brightness in my heart, and filling every minute of my time in prison with meaning. My love for you, on the other hand, is so full of remorse and regret that it at times makes me stagger under its weight. I am an insensate stone in the wilderness, whipped by fierce wind and torrential rain, so cold that no one dares touch me. But my love is solid and sharp, capable of piercing through any obstacle. Even if I were crushed into powder, I would still use my ashes to embrace you.

My dear, with your love I can calmly face my impending trial, having no regrets about the choices I’ve made and optimistically awaiting tomorrow. I look forward to [the day] when my country is a land with freedom of expression, where the speech of every citizen will be treated equally well; where different values, ideas, beliefs, and political views . . . can both compete with each other and peacefully coexist; where both majority and minority views will be equally guaranteed, and where the political views that differ from those currently in power, in particular, will be fully respected and protected; where all political views will spread out under the sun for people to choose from, where every citizen can state political views without fear, and where no one can under any circumstances suffer political persecution for voicing divergent political views. I hope that I will be the last victim of China’s endless literary inquisitions and that from now on no one will be incriminated because of speech.

Musings of a Recent Graduate

For the past several months I've been searching online for jobs, internships, schooling opportunities, etc. While most of these I'm automatically excluded from by required previous experience, I occasionally stumble upon paths that a) I could actually do and b) I would thoroughly enjoy. Then there always comes a roadblock to my surety:

- Working knowledge of two or more languages - Oui, je pense que c'est vrai... belki. (Fr: Yes, I think that's true... Tr: maybe.)
- Valid G or G2 Drivers license - Really?? Rats.
- [Travel experience (is an asset not a requirement) - CHECK AND DOUBLE CHECK! If only that were the only qualification.]
- Can passionately advocate for preferred smartphone - lolwut?
- Is eager to meet and exceed objectives and take on more responsibility - Maybe if it involves me travelling more.. or if their office supplies cabinet needs reorganizing... mmm office supplies (I have this thing for office supplies, as you may know.)
- Deliver public speeches and workshops - Sure, but they give me butterflies sometimes.
- Resourceful, self-motivated and energetic - I know myself; I'm not always energetic.

Apparently applying for these things requires a lot more thought, effort, and confidence than I anticipated. Sitting at home and waiting for a job to come to me suddenly sounds like a really good option!

Since my convocation ceremony on Saturday my family and friends have been especially encouraging by conveying their confidence that I will soon decide what to do next year and beyond. "I believe in you." Is that all it takes to motivate me? I think if the sentiment were empty I would be able to tell. The knowledge that this statement is grounded in genuine relationships and its resonance with my own self-confidence compel me to act. I am always motivated against disappointing others; that could work in my favour here as I strive to get started on this thing they call "real life".