teaching french is pretty hard =S.. i actually have to know stuff! *sigh* i cant just leave french class and forget evrything ive learned anymore. but hopefully this summer and the tutoring will help me reli get into the language so that ill be ready to study it in university. *crosses fingers*
so im kinda torn between online blogging & posting, and writing in my journal. theres something appealing about tapping out ones thoughts and hanging them up for anyone to read, but i find the actual act of writing to be such a greater release and a much more personal act. plus i seem to find more to write about than type =S.
i feel like such a disappointment. y do i always give in to my lethargy and neglect things i know i should do. its letting others and myself down, but that only depresses me and makes me wanna lie around more. a vicious cycle =P.
music!! wow! i bought the first billy talent cd and its absolutely incredible! i think, slightly better than their latest one. i love This Is How it Goes. also, coldplay's "Rush of Blood to the Head" cd is fantabulous too; id say, their best cd. Green Eyes, A WARNING SIGN!!!, and Amsterdam are my favourite tracks. im also contemplating buying death cab's latest cd. ive heard a couple of the songs on there, and im completely floored by them. i want =D.
LIC =D
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
7/26/2006
7/15/2006
www.nevergetoveryou
wow, melody, forgetful much? i seriously almost forgot the link to my own blog.. im sorry blogger *patpat* i promise ill never forget you. oh and i also got commenting back up for my posts so all of u with burning desires to let me know whats up, ur free to once again do so.
it may interest some of u to know that ive been round and about for the last 3 weeks. on june 22nd my sister and i hopped a greyhound bus to north carolina to visit friends down there. it was a 25 hour bus ride - not something id ever, EVER recommend. ever. bus rides are annoying, but u do meet a lot of reli nice ppl. so on june 23rd, my friend Adam picked us up at the bus terminal. haha it may also be of interest to know that id never actually met him before, but i suppose thats another story. neway, thats how it all started. i spent a few days down there, but of course i had to be back in Canada for our graduation ceremony on the 27th, so my visit was short. on monday the 26th, Adam drove me and my sister for 14 hours back up to Canada and stayed at my house for a week. it was a graduation present from his parents that he could spend a week anywhere he wanted and he decided a while back that he wanted to visit here =D! [dont ask me y, cuz i have no idea] then, on grad night, well hes the one many of u got to meet. so we did a bunch of fun stuff while he was here, he came to my church, met tons of my friends, and i dyed my hair again lol =P. he experienced Canada Day, and planned to drive back on july 5th. as a last minute thing, however, he had the brilliant idea for me to come back again with him and spend a bit more time there, which i immediately agreed to! w00t for roadtrips!! ^^
so i had my Glendon appointment on the 5th, then drove back down to NC with Adam on the 6th [flippin' awesome ^^!!]. however, i needed to be back in Canada before tuesday, so i basically had a weekend there =S. boo. well, it was fun neway, and i got to meet up with my old friend Justin who i met last year at my future leaders summit =D! oh and we went to see Pirates 2, which btw is an awesome movie. so then Justin & Adam drove with me back up here on the 10th. zomgosh they rock my FACE off!! xDDD... lol. so i had them both staying at my house for a while, and did lots of cool, fun stuff together. *sigh* but then yesterday they had to go back down to NC...... and this time i did not go =P lol. >__<>
on another note, ive realised that im terrible at expressing myself.. as in, the things i think & feel. i have no problems with the actual thinking things through part, but thats pretty much as far as it goes. i dont tell ppl, i dont often write them down. anything i do say has been turned over and over in my head so many times that it eventually falls out. neway, enough said. music is my outlet, so heres some lifehouse for you.
Trapped inside of these four walls
Walking brainless muppet dolls
Mushroom face beneath the tangles
Bleeding silhouette inside
Dancing like an angel would
And I am contemplating matters
All this cling and clatter
In my head, and what you said is ringing,
Ringing faster
And it's all good if you would
Stop the world from making sense
And if I could
Just realize it doesn't really matter,
It doesn't really matter
It doesn't really matter
Refuse to feel anything at all,
Refuse to slip,
Refuse to fall.
Can't be weak,
Can't stand still,
You watch your back 'cause no one will.
And I have felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same.
LIC =D
it may interest some of u to know that ive been round and about for the last 3 weeks. on june 22nd my sister and i hopped a greyhound bus to north carolina to visit friends down there. it was a 25 hour bus ride - not something id ever, EVER recommend. ever. bus rides are annoying, but u do meet a lot of reli nice ppl. so on june 23rd, my friend Adam picked us up at the bus terminal. haha it may also be of interest to know that id never actually met him before, but i suppose thats another story. neway, thats how it all started. i spent a few days down there, but of course i had to be back in Canada for our graduation ceremony on the 27th, so my visit was short. on monday the 26th, Adam drove me and my sister for 14 hours back up to Canada and stayed at my house for a week. it was a graduation present from his parents that he could spend a week anywhere he wanted and he decided a while back that he wanted to visit here =D! [dont ask me y, cuz i have no idea] then, on grad night, well hes the one many of u got to meet. so we did a bunch of fun stuff while he was here, he came to my church, met tons of my friends, and i dyed my hair again lol =P. he experienced Canada Day, and planned to drive back on july 5th. as a last minute thing, however, he had the brilliant idea for me to come back again with him and spend a bit more time there, which i immediately agreed to! w00t for roadtrips!! ^^
so i had my Glendon appointment on the 5th, then drove back down to NC with Adam on the 6th [flippin' awesome ^^!!]. however, i needed to be back in Canada before tuesday, so i basically had a weekend there =S. boo. well, it was fun neway, and i got to meet up with my old friend Justin who i met last year at my future leaders summit =D! oh and we went to see Pirates 2, which btw is an awesome movie. so then Justin & Adam drove with me back up here on the 10th. zomgosh they rock my FACE off!! xDDD... lol. so i had them both staying at my house for a while, and did lots of cool, fun stuff together. *sigh* but then yesterday they had to go back down to NC...... and this time i did not go =P lol. >__<>
on another note, ive realised that im terrible at expressing myself.. as in, the things i think & feel. i have no problems with the actual thinking things through part, but thats pretty much as far as it goes. i dont tell ppl, i dont often write them down. anything i do say has been turned over and over in my head so many times that it eventually falls out. neway, enough said. music is my outlet, so heres some lifehouse for you.
Trapped inside of these four walls
Walking brainless muppet dolls
Mushroom face beneath the tangles
Bleeding silhouette inside
Dancing like an angel would
And I am contemplating matters
All this cling and clatter
In my head, and what you said is ringing,
Ringing faster
And it's all good if you would
Stop the world from making sense
And if I could
Just realize it doesn't really matter,
It doesn't really matter
It doesn't really matter
Refuse to feel anything at all,
Refuse to slip,
Refuse to fall.
Can't be weak,
Can't stand still,
You watch your back 'cause no one will.
And I have felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same.
LIC =D
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