Musings of a Recent Graduate

For the past several months I've been searching online for jobs, internships, schooling opportunities, etc. While most of these I'm automatically excluded from by required previous experience, I occasionally stumble upon paths that a) I could actually do and b) I would thoroughly enjoy. Then there always comes a roadblock to my surety:

- Working knowledge of two or more languages - Oui, je pense que c'est vrai... belki. (Fr: Yes, I think that's true... Tr: maybe.)
- Valid G or G2 Drivers license - Really?? Rats.
- [Travel experience (is an asset not a requirement) - CHECK AND DOUBLE CHECK! If only that were the only qualification.]
- Can passionately advocate for preferred smartphone - lolwut?
- Is eager to meet and exceed objectives and take on more responsibility - Maybe if it involves me travelling more.. or if their office supplies cabinet needs reorganizing... mmm office supplies (I have this thing for office supplies, as you may know.)
- Deliver public speeches and workshops - Sure, but they give me butterflies sometimes.
- Resourceful, self-motivated and energetic - I know myself; I'm not always energetic.

Apparently applying for these things requires a lot more thought, effort, and confidence than I anticipated. Sitting at home and waiting for a job to come to me suddenly sounds like a really good option!

Since my convocation ceremony on Saturday my family and friends have been especially encouraging by conveying their confidence that I will soon decide what to do next year and beyond. "I believe in you." Is that all it takes to motivate me? I think if the sentiment were empty I would be able to tell. The knowledge that this statement is grounded in genuine relationships and its resonance with my own self-confidence compel me to act. I am always motivated against disappointing others; that could work in my favour here as I strive to get started on this thing they call "real life".

Old & Tired

I'm so sick of things we never did
And everything I'm not.
I could take all the complaints you're giving me
If you'd just give me your best shot.

I want to live in a dream
Where no one keeps a secret.
Be the child you never were
And appreciate it this time.

Will I always disappoint you?
Will I never save the world?

No regrets -
Cuz you haven't lived yet!
Reality is waiting for you
Just around the bend,
But you never have to answer.

What's there to do with all this time
We've been given?
Can't seem to find anything worthwhile;
You're certainly not on my list.